DearMr. Hollins, I used to call you Pastor Hollins, but that was whenI believedyou were a man that I could trust and rely on, one that,I thought, cared for my soul. I thought your purpose was to teach God’s children of His glorious grace and mercy; to guide and direct; to restore and edify.
As I put my trust in the Lord, I essentially put my trust in you, Mr. Hollins. I was persuaded that this was the right thing to do. I was convinced that this was the only way to live my life in order to be blessed and I was terrified to do otherwise. Yet, when I became confused and concerned about certain situations and I needed your help and support, you refused to let me ask and insisted that there was nothing wrong. Your actions have clearly demonstrated to me that I cannot put my trust in you and you show very little consideration for my soul, not to mention the souls of my brothers and sisters. Instead of extending love and compassion for one of God’s children, that was obligated to trust and obey you, Mr. Hollins, you repudiated my questions, then, you proceeded to lie to the rest of the assembly and say thatIwas rebellious and a troublemaker.
Little did I realise that over time I was living my life to fulfill your rules, regulations, guidelines and instructions that were enforced upon some members of the assembly, but notall. Only my desire for truth and justice could reveal the depth of corruption that permeatesyourungodly place.
Well, Mr. Hollins, I would like to thank you for your cruelty, unkindness and lies, for they have caused me to call out to the Lord for myself and find once again His goodness and mercy.I would like tosharewith you a scripture that might be of some help to you:Mic 6:8He hath shewed thee, O man, what is good; and what doth the LORD require of thee, but to dojustly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God Even ‘unsaved’ man understandeth mercy.
One of your favorite authors, Shakespeare himself wrote about mercy…The quality of mercy is not strain’d, It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven Upon the place beneath: it is twice blest; It blesseth him that gives and him that takes:…It is an attribute to God himself; And earthly power doth then show likest God’s When mercy seasons justice……we do pray for mercy; And that same prayer doth teach us all to render The deeds of mercy… Portia to Shylock in Shakespeare’s ‘The Merchant of Venice’
Finally Mr. Hollins, I would like to ask a few questions that have never been answered satisfactorily.why – are new people told to listen with an ‘open heart'; then after ?conversion’, slowly and subtly that precious heart is forced to obey and comply with every rule, regulation and guideline (spoken and unspoken) removing the need to look to the Lord and the Word themselves for enlightenment?why – do you say that the Lord’s sheep do not attack the Pastor’s wife and family, and the Lord’s sheep do not do?those things': If this were true, there would be no need for the shepherd.why – don’t you just say ? I don’t know’ rather than ?talk in riddles’ or lie when you don’t know…?
why – do you say ?I don’t know’ or ?I don’t recall’ when you do know…?why – do youdemandrespect from your brothers and sisters, yet fail to respect them?why – don’t you rule with the same force and cruelty towards the families of the ministry for things that ‘regular’ members have been excommunicated for?
why – is your church full of lies, deceit, hypocrisy and double standards?