What does it mean to be institutionalised? To be institutionalised is to be incorperated into a well established organizationor grafted into a structure. After time it is impossible for some to adapt back to any normal way of life after being INSTITUTIONALISED.It appears to me this may be the case with-in the GRC.
I will just explain myself briefly I myself from the age of 20 started having problems with-in my own walk, relating to certain problems I was having with the ministry & GRC doctrines & what is being practiced here in the Sydney Assembly GTF.It wasn’t until November last year I made the decision to sever all ties to this hypocritical doctrine of Legalastic control over people.
In this time frame from last November ?04′ back dating until I was 20 years of age was a period of 7 years. It was in this period I found myself confused & some what disillusioned with myself fitting into society & living under condemnation, that, what if in the end result”I was wrong “(I knew I wasn’t wrong in the circumstances that I stood against & the hypocrisy I had seen) but felt I was wrong because I still wasn’t attending the body of Christ no longer.
So it was in this period I felt compelled to go back, thinking that some how things may have changed or maybe I would have changed & adapted to a different way of thinking.As it turned out things were worse upon my return, sin had increased with in the Gospel Truth Fellowship in Sydney & I was hearing other head turning & remarkable stories of things happening in other assemblies.
I had no other choice but to get out of this system of corruption that calls itself the ONE & ONLY TRUE BODY OF CHRIST.
But as I was saying I felt under condemnation for leaving & compelled to return thinking that it was I that had a problem & that I could not do with out this system GRC based doctrine with-in my life, thus making me feel INSTITUTIONALISED.Why did I leave?Because I saw things were not right, Now don’t get me wrong no one is perfect & we all have troubles in the flesh but we live by the grace of God.But when things considered & deemed not spiritual are carried out & tried to be kept a secret from the assembly & YOUR PASTOR IS LYING then you have no choice but to rack your brain & ask yourself WHAT IS GOING ON?
Then you pray about it & even try to confront your Pastor about it & you get told to either seek the Lord about it or get told no one else has a problem with it or a scripture is thrown back out you out of context to justify the circumstance the are breaking or at worst GET TOLD TO LEAVE & NOT RETURN.
Then you get people who say ?ok I agree with you that its not right’, BUT then they say, we just turn a blind eye to these things. So virtuallythey are openly admitting they are walking blind.
Then you get ones who help or get used to do little chores, hand out communion glasses, count the collections, get to sit out the front with the Pastor often, & even the Helps, who profess to be the Right hand men to their Pastors. Now not all these people are effected but some carry on & support their Pastor even though he is wrong in the event that some how they will earn extra Pastor points & accelerate them into greater prosperity or future promotions. Unfortunately they don’t understand that they segregate themselves apart from the body of Christ & form an alliance with there Pastor in a Us & them type of set up.So as it turns out there is no UNITY with-in the assembly the men in charge are un-approachable & cannot & will not be told of any errors that either themselves have committed or others who are on the protected species list.As it stands now with myself I have been told that I am not allowed to return because I have left twice!
But it was alright for my wife to commit adultery & still attend there today & start making preparations for herself to get married again.The Sydney Assembly has lost all CREDIBILITY to function properly with a Pastor who finds it ok toencourage his daughter into representive Golf at tournament level & compete for prize money & miss meetings in order to do this. A Pastor that allows people to continue in fellowship full knowing they have committed Adultery.
Now you got to ask yourself? Can I leave this place? I understand people that have followed 10 , 20 , 30 ,maybe 50 years may feel some what disappointed that after all this time the TRUTH has dwindled away with in this place they are attending now.
But it is not the end DON’T FEEL INSTITUTIONALISED Don’t tell your self WE KNOW ITS WRONG WHATS HAPPENING but feel you can not leave the current administration because its ALL you KNOW & its what your are used too.There is help!Stay in contact with your Brothers & Sisters who are are walking in the spirit.God will provide adequate ministry when the time is right!
