Dookus’ story of Sydney hell Sunday, Mar 2 2008 

I first heard of the doctrine associated with the GRC and affiliates from a long time friend in Sydney when I was twenty three years old, it was early 1983 .At first of course I rejected this and went about my ways, I used marijuana on a regular basis and was going through a rough, self destructive patch and after hearing of this so called “word” I tried hallucinates which did not leave me in a good state of mind leaving me vulnerable to the likes of the GRC and it’s affiliates.

Due to being somewhat affected by the substances and being a person who’s physiology does not bear well with the intake of any substance that would cause a degradation of physical or mental health I fell into a state of mental illness and became very fearful of death, this caused me to think on this “word” that I had heard.

I first of all sought out this friend, I arranged to go to a meeting in MB’s house at Condell Park Sydney, I was at the time sharing a house in an outer western suburb with another friend who had some insight into Pentecostalism and he came as well.

we both sat through “the word” and at the end of this we agreed to be baptised, I was amazed at the harsh responses towards my friend, he mentioned to MB that he didn’t wear under wear and this brought about a very strange reaction from MB, instead of what one would expect, the offering of the necessary clothing (the clothing for baptisms was always in a kit, so what was the problem?) and an understanding that all people are different, MB’s reaction was one of disgust and his muttering and mumbling about how “we don’t care for your flesh” or words to that affect, he acted extremely offended that this man would mention this fact , and went on about it for some minutes.

Eventually we were baptised in this house and were settled down to “call on the lord” shouting hallelujahs into the pillows on the chairs of this house, I did not speak in tongues at that point.

At a later date, probably the midweek meeting which was held at Springwood in the blue mountains at that point, I once again was given a lift to have my time hearing the word and calling hallelujah at a pillow while two men touched me on the back, one spraying forth in English loudly how the lord should fill me with the holly spirit etc and the other speaking in tongues, once again I did not speak in tongues myself. however later on that night as we were about to be driven home bibles were offered to each of us, and at this stage I was somewhat “weirded out” by all this and used this offering as a point at which to take offence and accuse MB of attempting to bribe us, little did I know it was my so called “saved’ friend who had bought them for us. (someone who I still miss and has had a woeful time under Mick)

We were taken home and had little to do with these people for some time.

At a later date when I was living alone and somewhat feeling the need to find out if this “word” which was preached to me was true due to my mental state not being at it’s best I sought out MB and once again was involved in this ritual of shouting hallelujah at a pillow while being touched on the shoulder by two men, I was constantly being told to “Speak it out” and at that point felt extremely silly and wanted the whole thing to stop, I decided then and there to just make up some babble and go with it, this was just what was wanted, and something that dogged me for years to come after, I at my first “prayer and fast” was once again calling Hallelujah at a pillow feeling somewhat dirty as I felt I had sinned being a fraud, MB came to me and encouraged me to speak in the language god had given me, I then proceeded to cry and admit my folly of faking the babble, to which MB proceeded to inform me that my thoughts were those the devil had given me to take tmy “joy” away.

I was learning fast that what you said was just put aside with some routine saying such as that, I quickly learnt that silence on most accounts was the best and almost all things I may have said were treated contrarily, MB has this ability to offer the opposite opinion to anything one may say if he chooses to treat that particular person that way, I was one who seemed to need to be contradicted.

I also quickly learnt the punishment for doing anything no matter how minor that may be construed as wrong or of need of correction, the consequences were brisk and embarrassing, almost always the offender needed to be briskly made to feel small and stupid in front of the whole assembly, MB would yell his rebuke and stare directly at the offender those of us who were a bit naughty soon referred to MB as mad Mick, a name he acquired during his bike riding days MB was before being a “saint” an only child of a domineering mother and a former bikie, (a typical pre-requisit for becoming an “oversight” in a place like this) with long red hair and a beard etc etc, my friend who originally “witnessed” to myself was the type of person who learnt slowly, his quirky traits giving MB regular opportunity to attack him from the rostrum.

I was soon able to (as one does) put aside my thoughts of how I deliberately faked the “speaking in tongues” learning as so many do to ignore the truth that is always at the back of ones mind and go on blindly adhering to the ways and doctrines of the “saints” I learnt to phone mick when I felt someone was erring (though I stopped that early on), and to hide my own problems as I felt all to often they would be mentioned every time I was in MB’s presence (nothing was ever forgotten and often brought back up) and he would make me feel like I could never leave anything I went through behind, slowly more and more I felt condemned and unable to live up to the level expected of me, I felt I had to keep the fasard up, if one let their guard down MB would pounce and the consequences were worse than trying to deal with it oneself.

Having had little to no experience in the “world” with women, I soon developed a desire to approach a particular woman (Known as a sister) and hopefully date and marry etc, after ten months of attending this church, I, one day in a very nervous condition (I hated approaching MB at the best of times) approached MB and told him of my desire, he in his usual way brusquely told me how I had not reached the mandatory one year mark necessary to reach before one can be involved with a “sister” and only then if the “pastor” approves, and if he don’t, move on, to say the least he made me as usual feel rather badly and condemned for having feeling of any kind, the “sister” and I had talked previously and she was as keen on me as I were on her, we were both given a cruel brow beating for our sins and weren’t to talk to each other for another two months.

I should add here, that this “sister” and I would sometimes talk, mostly in the company of other “saints” at young peoples meeting and if MB was the chair of such a meeting we would quickly be put into place, briskly, loudly and so everyone present could hear and learn from our misdemeanour (felt more like we had committed as major sin) that single males do not converse with single females even if the conversation was bland and of no sin in anyway, remembering that we were adults, there was no problem with me talking to a married “sister” just this particular single one.

We did eventually start dating, we were very much in love after a short time, and we were often in trouble.

At the first camp while we were dating, at Ocean Grove, I had to work, something that gave the ministry an excuse to attack those poor souls that could not get that time of year off to attend camp, I could only get a few days in camp, so I caught a bus down to Melbourne and was picked up by my girlfriend and taken to camp. on our way to camp we dropped by a supermarket to buy goods, at one stage during this shopping expedition we stopped and being very much in love cuddled as we felt no one was watching, this quick cuddle was noticed by some other “saint”, reported to NH and upon our return to camp my girlfriend was grilled intensely by NH, she did complain to me of the severity of the grilling and was in tears during this intense treatment and still after as she explained it to me, she was accused of having “done the deed” (the wrong thing as they call it) and after her expression of innocence was treated as a liar and accused further, we both at this point considered leaving this so called church, but felt there was nothing outside for us and we stayed, upon return to Sydney MB who had been over seas came to me and was extremely harsh threatening to break us up making statements such as he did not want my girlfriend to end up like another “sister” who was single as her husband quickly decided to not “follow the lord” and they soon after split.

In August 85 (August presents me with many milestones I have found) we were married, on the day my wife to be was late, the celebrant was threatening to leave, this gave MB much to”minister” to me about, it seems I should have kept him further informed as to the arrangements, something I found out he needed more input into after the wedding (now honestly, he knew were doing this thing, how did he not know we would be hiring a celebrant.. he was unable to marry us) and as usual I sat there and said yes sir rather than have what seemed to be brutal “ministry” if you at all questioned his words or reasoning.

Three months into the marriage my wife felt a strong urge to have a baby, we talked and decided to go ahead, we were extremely committed to each other and it seemed only natural, sadly we forgot to clear this decision with MB, I still remember the feeling of inadequacy as he flew into us for not coming to him so he could dish out to us his form of family planning, two weeks short of our first anniversary my son was born, to my surprise we were accused of having conceived this child outside of wedlock, I at that point realised how reactionary this man was and how little thought he put into his statements before verbalising them, a 50 week pregnancy would have been a first I’m sure MB!!!!!!

The years following this are somewhat a blur, there are many many things I will ad to this over the next few months, needless to say my time in that place from then on was truly one of a struggle, trying my best to hide my true feelings for the sake of this woman I loved so much and my new family which was to grow a little more before long, the constant fear of being pulled aside by MB and being accused of this or that, hiding my feelings of self condemnation due to my inability to live up to the expectations, hearing from those that had become hateful of him and knew if they voiced their dislike of this man that voicing it within earshot of myself would not bring about a pastoral visit, his ability to poo poo other peoples pain or grief and to develop what we titled “Mini Micks” who would strut around telling this one or that one they were wrong dispelling advice in a staunch “Mick” fashion, the times between meetings where he seemed to always end up opposite me as we ate, all to often setting me up by leading me in conversation to a point where he could spurt forward loudly some statement to make me feel two inches tall as the whole “assembly” had no choice but to stop and listen as their attention would be unavoidably taken by his loud outburst, one time a young child spilt boiling water on his lap and Mick loudly proclaimed the child was just acting (phreaking ouch Mick you fool!!!) the list is long and the bitterness deep. I now seven years forward of being told to leave my family home felt I may have moved on and have lost the bitterness, sadness and associated grief from what transpired, but it is still a big part of my life today and probably always will be.

Raising children in the GRC Tuesday, Jan 15 2008 

We often sat in Geelong and Adelaide meetings and heard chilren referred to as “odious little monsters”. We were called on to break their will.

Well, we were in Perth for two years from 1984 to 1986. Pastor Jack didn’t say things like that. He said children were a gift from God and we ought to enjoy them. We asked his son once why he stayed in the church when he had ample opportunity to sin as a teen and he replied because he loved and respected his father too much. I asked Graham H. He said when he felt like sinning the muscles in his butt went tense - in anticipation. hmmm what sort of parent do I want to be?

As the years ticked on I started looking at the numbers of teenagers that left the church in Australian - about 90%. I thought to myself, could it be because they have been treated so harshly that they got out as soon as they were old enough to make it on their own?

When we visited Australia I could just about predict which kids would be the next to leave - would I want to live with their parents? No way. They were rigid, angry people, of little patience.

How many pastors lost their ‘ministry’ because their children fornicated? These men were diligent disciples of Noel. Carefully bringing up their children in the way he had taught them. Sometimes I heard people talk about certain brothers - how slack they were - they didn’t have the same attitude towards their children. I certain brother - let’s call him Mark - remarked to me how his (’backslidden’ - I am begining to doubt that label has any real meaning when used by the GRC) (Pot, meet Kettle) father hardly ever smacked him - yet Mark became a pastor. Pastor P’s son got beaten into next week but couldn’t catch a ball - (because his father never spent any quality time with him.)

We started to look at the statistics and methods people were using and realised they were seriously flawed. In about 1992 we did an about-face on the child-rearing practices here and the results have been encouraging. Kids who have a good relationship with their parents. Sweet little pumpkins who can relax at meetings and have healthy relationships with other people. Oh and young people who are allowed to have friendships with the opposite gender don’t automatically go immoral. But kids who have a bad relationship with their parents very often do.

Think about it. What’s the doxology in youngies there? Another one bites the dust… yes there’s another one gone and another one gone. Children are a gift from God and you’d better love them before it’s too late. Loving them means showing them affection. I asked a sister here whose (unchurched) family used to beat her regularly. Did you love them? No, she replied, I hated them and left as soon as I was old enough.

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Reply to : viridian What a very sad thing to have happened to you and your little girl. (Have sent you a private message)

Hollins knows that his “spare the rod, spoil the child” teaching is wrong (bad) because he used to be so paranoid when the tapes of the talk were given to parents that had missed it. I mean really paranoid!!!!!!! The kuffufle that went on to make sure they were all returned and accounted for was amazing. It is only now with hindsight that I understand why he made sure he got them all back.

Most of us were persuaded to go to our first meeting when we were in a very rocky part of our life’s journey. We went because they seemed to have all the answers. We were looking for an answer to the “big question” and trying to do the right thing by the LORD, trying to find a place of belonging and security and trying to save our children from the prophesied conflagration that is supposedly still coming to “punish” the Earth.

We were led slowly and gently away from reality and into the dark, dark place that is the GRC PTY LTD’S version of reality.

Children were never viewed as little people in their own right, but as something that had to broken and moulded.

While our children suffered and still do as a result of us wanting to do the right thing, guilt is not one of the feelings that you should have.

The guilt must be laid squarely where it belongs, on the shoulders of the man responsible for the Doctrines preached in the GRC - Noel Hollins himself.

You are free now Viridian - to make right what has happened by reporting it to the appropriate authority. Nothing will happen, but at least it is another black mark against the destructive ways of the GRC PTY LTD. The more the black marks pile up, the weaker the entire structure will become.

Good luck and God bless. Drop me a line if you like.

Cheers,

Glad

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I have been made aware of a situation in the assembly regarding the treatment of a young child when being chastised by the father. There has been people who have witnessed this and have been concerned and upset by what they have seen.

Because it is within the 4 walls of the assembly it is accepted by some and the concerned others have to accept it.

Is anyone aware of the current legal guidelines of disciplining children?

An incident that happened to me over 10 years ago, when I was in hospital, my baby daughter (only a few months old at the time) was being minded by a sister in the assembly and one day when she brought my baby in the hospital she apologised because her husband had smacked my daughter and left a bruise. when she showed me the bruise, I was sickened by what I saw, she had a very large black bruise down her left thigh and also some bruising to her right thigh. I was told that the husband was trying to give her a bottle of formula and everytime he tried to put the bottle in her mouth she would start screaming, he assumed she was just being rebellious so he kept smacking her………….I found out later that the sister had heated the bottle in the microwave and didn’t check the heat properly, so when my baby started drinking it burnt her mouth and throat. and then so everytime the husband would try to give her the bottle she would start to scream because of the pain and then he would smack her again. I think back now on that incident and wish I had reported him, but back then I was unwell and I was very scared of him. I have learnt from my experiences in that place and I am now a stronger person for leaving that place.

Children are a gift from God and we should be grateful that we have been given the responsibility to raise them in the way that the Lord expects us to NOT in the heavyhanded way that is taught in the assembly.

On behalf of my younger brother Tuesday, Jan 15 2008 

8 years ago when we (my family mum & dad & 2 other brothers) when we were all still living at home together, & attending the (Sydney Gospel Truth Fellowship) affiliated with GRC pty ltd.

1998 my brother B.M. was a 16 year old… I guess your average boy growing up looking at what he was missing out in the so-called evil world….
Concluding already at this age of 16, that there was already so much hypocrisy with-in the GRC my brother started to buck the trend of conformity.
He then faced fierce & stern discipline from mum & dad at home & the ministry, this caused him further to rebel & not comply with a hypocritical culture that says do one thing & then they do another.

We often passed sporting fields on Sunday mornings & see people with their children playing netball, rugby league & soccer.
B.M. would always make some comment under his breath in the back of the car & say, “Look at those people they have a life & are happy”
He would often get reprimanded for such comments & told, “All those people are going to hell”

And that he should feel privileged that he was saved from an eternal death (all fear & morbid comments to make him feel honoured of being apart of a elite society known as the GRC, Gods one & only chosen body to make it to heaven.)

As time passed in 1998 B.M. was more & more disassociated & unhappy with hypocrisy at the functions within the Sydney GRC affiliated regime.
Often told not to take communion, ostracised from group activities, told not to attend young peoples.

So now looking back at all this you can see the perfect example how they can push people away that don’t fall into conformity.

Eventually… B.M. still didn’t want to conform pressing on with his desire to just live a normal life in which mum & dad kept trying to tell him he had a more then normal life repeating the same old propaganda of GRC totalitarian leadership.

So eventually Mick Brydon had placed a decision upon my parents that if B.M. didn’t want to conform or be there.
That they should not provide him with a roof over his head any longer & kick him out on to the streets if this is where he wanted to belong.

So in 1998 B.M. at 16 years of age he was forced out of the family home & told if he doesn’t want the Lord he can live on the streets.
Faced with nowhere to go it was here B.M. began his life as a kid on the streets.
In his unwillingness to conform B.M. stood at the prospects of living on the street & having to fend for himself at 16.

Now before we start to judge, I don’t condone the activities my brother did as a street kid but when a child is forced to live upon the streets with no help he turned toward some criminal activities to survive & started with the use of illicit drugs use such as Marijuana & Ice.

He led a lifestyle of complete lawlessness & stole to clothe himself & to eat.
Eventually the law caught up with my brother, he was charged with auto theft & looked at the possible sentence of prison term.

The turn around

B.M. sat in a Parramatta gaol cell awaiting a court hearing it was here he was sitting with some serious & hardened criminals & he realised that he wasn’t a hardened criminal & was hoping for a way out.

He was appointed a Salvation Army Officer representative who told the courts they would like the court to show him some leniency & give them (Salvation Army) time to rehabilitate him.

So he was lucky enough to be given sometime to change his way & get some assistance.

It was here B.M. was placed in temporary boarding housing & took on casual employment tasks affiliated with Salvation Army operations (charitable activities feeding homeless etc) Anyhow B.M. now had a roof over his head & had ceased criminal activities & kicked the habit of regular drug use.

In 1999 B.M. was introduced to a man Jeff Gambin a Multi millionaire who gives a tremendous amounts of time toward charitable work.
It was here B.M. spent a lot of his time helping Jeff Gambin’s daily operations through the organization he runs called Just Enough Faith ( www.justenoughfaith.org )

Now I have met this man Jeff Gambin in person & found him to be one of the most compassionate & sincere persons I have ever come across who gives generously & has so much time for those much more unfortunate then us.
This person has more heart & compassion then most of those that I knew in the GRC pty ltd.

This Man Jeff Gambin helped my brother & shaped him into a better person he also introduced him to 2 more interesting people Don & Margie McIntyre http://www.dicksmithfoods.com.au/dsf/index.php?d=news&p=47 )
It was here B.M. found himself working as deck hand on the Ice Breaker ship The Sir Hubert Wilkins which was co owned by the McIntyres & Dick Smith.
B.M. was asked in 2000 when a position fell vacant to go on an Antarctic Expedition.

By now he was rubbing shoulders with some influential people ( Daily Telegraph Editoral writer PIERS AKERMAN …. TV presenter SIMON NASH…. Australian Entrepreneur DICK SMITH…..

My Brother was well & truly a different person as his life was taking shape & re-educated & helped by those who cared to help him as he helped himself.
So here it was my brother travelling to parts of the world that we may never goto, venturing out with film crews to make documentaries & going on diving expeditions in remote places.

Certainly a remarkable turn around for someone who was considered to be a misfit within the GRC & was expelled at the age of 16 when its so important when developing into a young man & still in need of love & caring.
But he was dumped on the scrap heap he was ridiculed as those who attended the Sydney Gospel Truth here in Sydney spoke of B.M. as he was some piece of garbage who was a thorn in the side.

I am proud of my brother B.M. he has achieved a lot more being outside GRC pty ltd & he done it with the help of his new friends but most of all he helped himself & has reached goals to most unreachable.
He now resides on the other side of the country in Perth he met a lovely Girl & is buying a house & runs a small business there & he is only 25… He has a bright future & doesn’t look back at anything lost.

But most of all he is truly happy and has chosen to move on positively.

One thing is B.M. has been urged to write a autobiography of his rise from tragic events being expelled by a Cult (GRC) & his own family & forced to live on the streets… & how he had risen above all this to make achievements & how he overcome adversity being told he wouldn’t be blessed without God in his life.

I hope one day if he has spare time that he will write of his experience within the cult & being expelled at 16 living on the streets & rising to a better life with the help of people who are criticised as men pleasers.

I just wish I was more supportive of him back then as I also was guilty of ostracising him I’m just glad we are close now.
That’s the story in a nutshell about my brother B.M.

Robust_18@yahoo.com.au

IN SEARCH OF TRUTH Tuesday, Jan 15 2008 

A testimonial from David Erwin

My parents were members of the Geelong Revival Centre when I was born in 1964. While a Godly conscience was impressed upon me throughout my childhood years, I also learnt many values from working with nature, being raised on the family’s farm.

The relationship I had with my cousins from my father’s side of the family, strangely ended as a result of the 1972 split. The initiative of Mr. Hollins to become independent and break away from the then Revival Centres Australia, divided my family in half. Initially I was not able to understand how my cousins had become so vile. As I continued to grow in the elitist environment of the GRC, I developed and applied the same hatred towards these relatives, which was preached and demanded by Mr. Hollins.

During my childhood I felt very different and inferior to my cousins who are from my mother’s side of the family. My grandmother would often remind me that I was the ‘black sheep’. She would think nothing of it to belittle me for not having received the Holy Spirit in front of the cousins. I vividly remember the embarrassment I used to feel at the age of ten, onwards.

At the permissible age of fourteen, I knew I was expected to get baptised and so for the wrong reasons, I put my hand up to be baptised one Sunday night. This was also the permissible age that required my attendance at the Young People’s meetings.

Having only known a child hood which involved the social structure of the GRC, I became accustom to a life of fear. The constant drumming of prophetic Armageddon and nuclear war, crime, social dilapidation, politics, immorality, etc. instilled an overload of apprehension upon my pubescent mind. Attending Young People’s meetings in my early years seemed to be just another setting that intensified the fear and the guilt of my unworthiness. Being told the only way to escape was by receiving the Holy Spirit I naturally strived with God for this infilling and frequently condemned myself for being denied. The notion of ‘running away’ became more feasible with passing time.

The constant unavoidable hammerings from those who preached my certain damnation, and segregated me for not being able to ’speak in tongues’, all took its toll. I mixed with other teenagers who were in the same dilemma as my self. We earned our title, ‘the slackos’, and were frowned down upon rather than being understood or cared for.

The ever present feeling of condemnation affected my behaviour. I lost respect for the church and those who assumed authority to lord their version of God’s Will upon me. Strangely, I knew in my heart that I desired to be right in God’s sight. The ministry seemed to make this unattainable. Inevitably, I rebelled. At fifteen going on sixteen years of age, I secretly began smoking cigarettes and casually drinking alcohol. I used foul language frequently in the presence of my ‘worldly’ friends. Learning to work hard at a young age provided me with the means to purchase many things for my pleasure. Inevitably, all these things failed me. I couldn’t find inner peace while knowing I was not being true to myself, or being who I assumed my God wanted me to be.

By my own freewill, I called on God unreservedly when I was seventeen years old. I was not thinking about Mr. Hollins, the GRC, or ’speaking in tongues’. I cried out to God to show me His mercy and His grace. I wanted to feel redeemed. I wanted a second chance to start a new life. I had had enough of my hopeless state.

I believed God answered my prayer with the most beautiful sensation I have ever experienced. I was completely overwhelmed and peace literally flooded my soul. At the same time, I began ’speaking in tongues’, but this was merely an expression of my joyful experience.

The overwhelming feeling of acceptance that followed impressed me and I impulsively threw myself toward the direction of the ministry. I soon became one of the many who competed for the admirable recognition of Mr. Hollins. Such condescending behaviour within the GRC was always encouraged. Eventually, on the 17th of November, 1985, I departed Melbourne’s international airport destined for Canada. My mission was to preach the things I had been told in hope to establish an assembly in Vancouver, which would fall under the pre-eminence of Mr. Hollins.

When Mr. Hollins visited Vancouver around two yeas later, we discussed my application for Canadian citizenship. I vividly remember the moment when Mr. Hollins stood up and with a raised indignant voice said words to the effect of; ‘this is a British Commonwealth Nation. The Lord would have it that a brother who ministers here, will reside and work in this country’. When my application for Canadian citizenship was denied, I simply accepted my time there was done. I assumed the will of God excluded any further participation by my self in the Vancouver assembly, so I returned to Australia on the 1st of July, 1988 .

In the months following my return to Australia, I began to hurt knowing that Mr. Hollins had approved transitory ministry, rotating every three months. Having self-funded my air fares and accommodation in Vancouver ; I was also at a loss to understand how the succeeding brethren had all of their expenses paid for by the GRC, which included the costs associated with taking their wives in many cases. The frivolous appropriation of funds seemed unjustified in my mind. I had difficulty coming to grips with the fact that I’d become sidelined, but I could never speak to anyone about it. Eventually permanent ministry was provided under a sponsorship arrangement. These options were never available to me. In these younger impressionable years, I assumed the ministry was ordained by God and for fear of Mr. Hollins I never dared question, or demonstrated any notion of disrespect.

While I was living in Canada, a cousin from the Adelaide assembly got married. I hadn’t given them a wedding gift. When I learnt that he was building a residential dwelling, I jumped at the opportunity to go over to Adelaide to lay bricks. Having exhausted all my personal savings to fund the Canadian visit, I deemed my labour to be a wedding gift for them.

One morning during tea break at the building site, my uncle (who is also the pastor of the Adelaide assembly) was talking with me alone. He steered the conversation towards my involvement with the establishment of the Vancouver assembly. I felt confused and perturbed by the nature of his comments and sensed he was ashamed with me. Suddenly, with his finger pointing at my face he yelled; “the reason Frank DeBooy is in a wheel chair is because HE CAME BACK!”

(The man my uncle referred to had gone to the Brisbane assembly from Geelong , to consider moving there permanently and fulfil the role as a helper. He decided not to move to Brisbane . Years later, he sustained serious spinal injuries in a motor vehicle accident. I only discovered in recent years that other pastors also used this example of God’s alleged punishment upon brothers who consider forfeiting a ministerial position.)

I felt utterly sick when my uncle made this statement. Immediately, condemnation and fear once again besieged me. My innocent assumption that my uncle was a ‘man of God’ caused me to block any thought or reason to question. For the very first time since I committed my heart to follow Jesus Christ, I began to doubt my righteous standing before God. I truly felt I had lost my Salvation.

Immediately my behaviour changed. This was noticed by others working at the site too. I began laying bricks like a man possessed with urgency. I just wanted to get away form everyone, especially my uncle, and the city of Adelaide.

Some months later, I was asked by Mr. Hollins to go to Bombay, India . Still being willing to only serve the ministry, I obliged. My short two month stay with the folk in Bombay was wonderful. To this day I have treasured my memories of having met these people. During one meeting in particular, a young man experienced a miraculous infilling of the Holy Spirit after I’d shared thoughts which had brought much joy to myself about the ?mercy seat’. The wonderful atmosphere this particular evening, temporarily relieved me of my personal condemning thoughts. However, the feelings of guilt and condemnation soon returned when I arrived back in Geelong. Hearing news and announcements about what was happening in Vancouver, only added to my perplexity.

The many years that followed while in the GRC were very unpleasant for me. My thoughts and feelings were constantly waring with various aspects of certain doctrines preached by Mr. Hollins. I couldn’t agree in my heart with many things that were being preached and that were happening within the church. The way Mr. Hollins’ always presented his doctrine made me feel I was wrong for not being in agreement with his ministry, and to question him on anything is equally shameful as to questioning God.

Having lost all my joy, I became reluctant to share my testimony in the meetings. My senses could easily detect the apparent stench of hypocrisy with certain people, who eulogised Mr. Hollins as equally significant to Jesus Christ.

Unknowingly, history was repeating itself throughout the passing years in my life. The ?ministry of condemnation’ had completely blinded me from seeing my worthiness or right standing before God. Naturally, I associated with many people who were just like me and were living a double life. Years of attending three meetings (or more) weekly, and being exposed to hearing abusive yelling and usurping of ministerial authority, obstructed my ability to see the mercy of God, which I myself had once preached to deliver other souls from inner torment.

Mr. Hollins conveniently used the New Years Eve meeting at the Ocean Grove Camp on the 31st of December, 1999, to impel his ideals for the new millennium. His entire sermon was a self acclimation that asserted his position of apostleship and the leader of the ‘Only True Church’ in the entire World. It was this sermon that gave me the most sickening feeling I had ever experienced. I sat during the sermon in a state of shock, finding it impossible to believe I was even hearing what Mr. Hollins said. For the first time in my life, I realised that the ministry I was taught to respect and obey had definitely crossed the line. At the time, I couldn’t apply logic to ascertain the GRC was actually a dangerous cult, but I knew Mr. Hollins was speaking contrary to God’s Holy Word.

Suddenly, Mr. Hollins’ doctrine concerning the infilling of the Holy Spirit outside of his ministry, also came to the forefront of my mind. I had always been taught that every Spirit filled person who was not in the GRC or associated assemblies were ‘backslidden Pentecostals’. Everything about the GRC agenda began to connect. This elitist environment was my world. I knew no other principle to follow than GRC initiatives. The realisation of what I was rapt in, exposed a new quagmire of obstacles and problems for me. To escape was impossible and by remaining, I became lost and confused within this familiar environment. The true demeanour of Mr. Hollins became apparent to me. The entire organisation was ALL about him. I began to perceive he was a wolf in sheep’s clothing, but I didn’t want to believe it. Occasional doubts, such as ‘what if he is right’ haunted me, and denied my ability to reason. Eventually inner turmoil caused me to lose control of my behaviour.

My deep seated psychological fear surfaced one Sunday during a Communion meeting at the Ocean Grove Revival camp. Mr. Hollins was speaking about the ‘perfection of the Church’. My thoughts were on ?mercy and grace’ while he spoke. I could not see evidence of the ‘perfection’ he spoke of, in the GRC. The fear of one day being chastised in a similar way to Mr. DeBooy emerged again. I decided to go out to the prayer line following the Communion Service. Although the miraculous power of the Holy Spirit infilling had become only a memory, I believed the onus was on God to prove himself to me. So I went out for prayer hoping some great blessing would come down upon me.

It so happened that out of all the pastors praying for people, Mr. Hollins came up to me. When he acknowledged my presence, I requested that I wanted to pray for Br. Frank DeBooy and without much thought I said ‘I believe he can be healed’. Mr. Hollins paused and then abruptly replied, ‘NO’.

Mr. Hollins refused to pray with me. I sensed he felt I was challenging him. Hundreds of pairs of eyes witnessed the silent standoff. I was completely lost for words not knowing his reason. To this day I have never found out why he refused to pray with me for Br. Frank DeBooy.

The GRC was fast becoming a very lonely place. There was no one I could talk to about all the subtle twists applied to Scriptures, designed to subjugate members to the ministry. Even while in camp with a thousand or so Christian believers all around me, there was no one I knew who I could confidently talk to. My wife had always been a lawful and loyal disciple of Mr. Hollins too. The oppression of GRC scrutiny haunted me, even in my own home. Naturally I suffered spiritually, physically, and mentally, by this cruel entrapment.

Inevitably, I descended to the lowest point a person could ever reach in their life and begun contemplating suicide. During this extremely torturous and difficult time, I began to confide in my cousin. To her credit, she was a good listener and made time to often speak with me. In my spiritually and mentally vulnerable state, I opened up to her and told her many things that were bottled up inside of me. She was my last attempt to reach out to some one who might at least understand.

My life of GRC indoctrination had inevitably taken its toll as I was made to believe the ‘cross of Christ’ was no longer enough for my redemption. Condemnation had driven me down to this point. I was not only contemplating suicide, but planning and making arrangements to do so. The ever present thought that maybe Mr. Hollins is who he claimed to be haunted me. I could no longer adhere to his ministry.

While I shared my pain with my cousin, I discovered she had many personal matters burdening her own life too. I soon learned she had had a terrible childhood and adolescent life, being brought up in a household with a cruel pastor for a father. Like me, she too had been living a double life while trying to cope in the GRC. My cousin and I agreed nothing could change our sub-cultural lifestyle, and that it was impossible to be what the ministry expected.

It was during this bonding with my cousin that I learnt about a matter that was seriously troubling her and adding to her misery. She told me about her next door neighbour, who was allegedly stalking her. She also shared details of her husband’s lack of concern. She began to cry as she told me how much she just wanted to move out of the rented co-op house and buy a house in another suburb away from her stalker. Her sad story immediately captured my focus. I thought if I could find a house that was affordable for them, maybe I could help her out.

I found a house which I believed could be made into a valuable asset, needing only minor renovations. During the inspection of this property, my cousin commented just how much she liked the house and the address. After she spoke with her husband, I was told they had invested their savings in shares and could not raise the deposit until the shares were sold.

I felt this was an easy obstacle to get around, and so I offered to give them an unencumbered interest free loan for up to twelve months. My offer would give them more than enough money for the deposit and the opportunity to sell their shares at an optimum time to repay the debt. They accepted my offer and obtained a home loan.

Immediately after the settlement date, I went to work on the renovations. The generosity I showed towards my cousin had further impact upon my marriage. It was a difficult time for all of us, but somehow we all got through alive.

During the last year prior to my expulsion from the GRC, I desperately tried to set many things right. I tried my best to apply my understanding of Scripture with the desires of my heart, in an attempt to get my life back on track. I made several attempts to speak with my uncle about the ?Frank DeBooy’ doctrine. However, he avoided me and refused to speak with me each time. I also tried to express my disagreement with Mr. Hollins regarding the ‘Only True Church in the World’ doctrine. Mr. Hollins avoided me too on this topic, and changed the subject to my relationship with the Lord.

Avoidance by the ministry to address my issues became obstacles which prevented me from seeing past the errors of their ministry. It became obvious that Mr. Hollins and the Elders were more concerned about keeping me under their subjection, rather than the care for my soul.

My hatred towards partiality, hypocrisy, and abusive church practises continued to build as I considered many inconsistencies within the GRC ministry. Unable to restrain myself, I began to question various things and voiced some of these questions to Mr. Hollins and other GRC members. It seemed that no one would tell me the truth, but rather suggested I just tow the party line. Instead, I towed a line that was testing the fragility of my GRC membership.

Midway through the year I discovered my cousin and her husband were in financial difficulties. I became alarmed by the possibility that I may not be repaid the money in the agreed time frame. This became another unwanted concern during my already much troubled life. Previously, I had never told my wife about the loan. I assumed there was not going to be any problems, knowing that they owned shares to the equivalent value of the debt. When I asked my cousin about the shares she confessed and told me, ‘there are no shares’. Torn between compassion and anger, I was left stunned.

It was difficult to come to terms with the fact that I’d been lied to. To this day, I still don’t know when my cousin first became aware that the shares never existed. I wanted to believe she too was deceived by her husband, as that would mean she didn’t take advantage of my vulnerable state. Strangely, I also felt guilty towards her now knowing I was the catalyst for placing them in debt for 100% of the house valuation.

Naturally, I felt compelled to tell my wife about what had happened. I decided to contact Mr. Hollins and inform him about the situation too. Mr. Hollins immediately went into damage control mode. I discovered from my cousin that Mr. Hollins had had to involve himself previously with his son’s financial matters. The manipulative tactics used by Mr. Hollins, in an attempt to relieve his son of the debt and the appearance of any wrong doing, were appalling.

My wife was told by Mr. Hollins that she was to have nothing to do with the situation and was instructed very sternly not to speak to anyone about the matter. For loyalty and fear of Mr. Hollins, she obliged to his request. Mr. Hollins had set the stage for me to take the fall alone.

Circumstances had forced things to turn around. Rather than concede defeat, I chose to fight to survive. I needed to know the truth for my defence. I wanted answers. I wanted to know the truth about the shares. I even began to doubt my cousin’s story about being the victim of a stalker. One day, I indicated to my cousin that I would like to speak with her previous neighbour, just to see her reaction. She pleaded and begged for me not to speak to him. I felt I had gotten my unwanted answer, and so I decided to visit him anyway. (This person is not involved with the GRC. For the sake of his privacy the content of my conversations with him will remain confidential.)

After some time and consideration, I still believed that we should and could sort out the mess. I requested from Mr. Hollins an opportunity for all of us to get together and resolve the issue. I believed this was also right according to the Bible, and so I was astounded when my request was declined. Mr. Hollins told me over the telephone that he would only speak to me alone but with Mr. Carey present as the witness. With no other option given, I felt I had to comply.

I went to the residence of Mr. Hollins to speak with the ministry. After a short and formal greeting, Mr. Hollins sat forward in his chair at the outset and said; “If you mention any person’s name other than your own, the conversation will cease immediately”.
My mind went blank. It became apparent that everything I wanted to say was not wanted to be heard. Mr. Hollins then began to talk about my ?spiritual state’ and accused me of being the only person with a problem. I then asked him about the money situation. Mr. Hollins referred to Scriptures that conveniently favoured his son and claimed that all my problems were the result of me ?walking in the flesh’. He also told me that I should forgive them and let them have the money out of my supposed abundance.

This cut me very deeply, but not the way Mr. Hollins hoped. He made my sweet gift become very bitter. I had renovated the interior of the house for my cousin, which took about six weeks and working in excess of 60 hours per week. My gift was never considered in the equation. Besides this, I knew Mr. Hollins was not privy to my own financial situation and he had no right to assume that I could afford to throw away $20, 000.00.

While still in the early stages of the conversation, the telephone rang. As Mr. Hollins talked on the telephone, I leaned across towards Mr. Carey and quietly asked him, “Who do you speak to when there is a problem between two people”. Mr. Carey replied, “The ministry”.

I raised my shoulders with hands out and upwards as to say, ‘Well, here I am and the other brother is not present’. Mr. Hollins became so agitated by our quiet conversation on the side, he told the caller to wait a moment and then sternly instructed Mr. Carey not to speak with me.

During the few controlled minutes of basically being told to shut-up and wait, I had time to realise my present hopeless position. I knew I was not going to get anywhere without forfeiting the money. When Mr. Hollins came off the telephone and began judging me as being ’spiritually dead’, I decided to leave. It was so clear to me that this matter was not going to be resolved except that I was going to be made wear it.

Some time later my wife was accused by Mr. Hollins of getting involved in the situation, which was against the direction of his ministry. He accused my wife of speaking inappropriately about my cousin and her husband, to the innocent neighbour. She assured Mr. Hollins that she didn’t, and that she had never even met the man. I decided to go around to this unfortunate man’s house again, to speak with him. I discovered that he knew someone from the GRC assembly who had told him certain details. I also discovered how this information got back to Mr. Hollins.

The next meeting was the Wednesday night I got expelled. I approached Mr. Hollins with my wife to talk to him about the matter. I believed Mr. Hollins was obligated to hear the truth and acknowledge that my wife was wrongfully accused.

When my wife began talking and he realised where the conversation was going, he interrupted and stopped her from speaking. It was immediately obvious that he did not want to hear anything about his son and daughter in-law. That was it. I couldn’t contain myself anymore. I said to Mr. Hollins, “YOU ARE SO PARTIAL”! I then said to my wife, “Just forget it. Let’s go home.”

As I proceeded to walk out the door, Mr. Hollins said, “You are not permitted to attend meetings anymore”. Whatever else he said wasn’t heard as I just kept walking out the door.

The feeling of being so devastated and hurt by my partial pastor brought me to tears. I gave up on both these men (my uncle and Mr. Hollins) who I assumed were men of God. Nothing hurt me more than the partiality and the deceptive lying heart of the ministry. More so than the money, or even being lied to by my cousin and her husband to enable them to buy the house, partiality in the ministry was what hurt me the most.

On t he 23rd of December, 2002ate>, my solicitor sent a letter of demand to recover the debt, under my instruction. (The money was repaid immediately after the holiday period.)

I endeavoured to speak with my uncle at the Ocean Grove camp to see if there was still a chance of resolving the dispute over the ‘Frank DeBooy doctrine’ and the issue about the loan. He was so angry (like a man possessed) there was no way he could be reasoned with. I was threatened and driven out of the camp by a large posse of proud men.

My wife and children remained in the camp, and the ministry made their stay an absolute hell. Men armed with ?walkie talkies’ were assigned to stalk my nine year old son. Also, several people who engaged in conversation with my wife were interrogated by the ministry afterwards. It wasn’t long before she also found herself isolated. Although being taunted with smug expressions by family members who enjoy unconditional immunity, she managed to attend meetings without confrontation.

During the next six months or so leading up to my wife’s expulsion, paranoia tore Mr. Hollins apart. He couldn’t handle the fact that she new the truth and that it was difficult to re-write history while she was still in the fellowship.

In the weeks leading up to my wife’s expulsion, she was harassed continually by the ministry. Mr. Hollins had expressed on many occasions to her that I was a very dangerous ?backslider’ and our marriage would need to end for her spiritual well-being. Now knowing the truth about the money and my issues with the ministry, she could not agree with Mr. Hollins on how our relationship must end on his terms. This placed her in a very tenuous and precarious position.

One attempt to invent evidence for reasons to expel my wife, failed. Mr. G. Carey used Mrs. D. Preece as a false witness to accuse my wife of murmuring against the son and daughter in-law of Mr. Hollins. She immediately approached Mrs. Preece who was being used by the ministry as a false witness and exposed the plot. This only made the ministry more determined to expel her.

My wife was caught in the cross fire. She had always obeyed the ministry after being warned not to become involved within the dispute. At the end of every GRC meeting leading up to her expulsion, she was approached by the ministry. They endeavoured to talk about the dispute with her hoping she would say something they may use against her. They insinuated claims that she was holding a grudge against my cousin and her husband.

I arranged for my solicitor to send Mr. Hollins a warning to stop harassing my wife. Mr. Hollins then instructed an Elder to do his dirty work. I then arranged for my solicitor to address the same warning to the appropriate Elder. Mr. Hollins then appointed a different Elder to do his dirty work, and so he too was given a solicitor’s letter of cautioning. This went on, and on, and on, until she was eventually expelled by Mr. A. Morton without reason, under the instruction of Mr. Hollins.

Approximately six months later, my wife’s mother, who was still attending the GRC, became critically ill and was taken to St. Vincent’s Hospital Intensive Care Unit in Melbourne. It is perceivable that her health had been adversely affected by the eviction of her daughter from the GRC. My wife is her only child and was required to care for her mother when released from hospital 5 weeks later.

As her health improved, she indicated she wanted to attend Sunday Communion meetings at the GRC. I decided to write a detailed letter, without prejudice, explaining to the GRC administration exactly what had happened to her, which had also caused her absence from meetings for the two month period. A signed copy of the letter was sent by registered mail to Mr. Hollins, Mr. H. DeVries, Mr. G. Carey, and Mr. P. Morgan. The letter also requested for the ministry not to expel her for living with us during recovery, as this would not be in the best interest for her physical and psychological wellbeing.

The following Sunday, my mother in-law was not well enough to attend the meeting. The weekend after that she wanted to attend but was apprehensive. My wife and I decided that it was not good for her to go alone. We arranged with a private nursing service to provide a professional carer, who transported her and attended the next Sunday Communion meeting with her. Feeling nauseous when the meeting was near ended, she asked her carer to take her home. As they walked out of the hall she was given a letter by Mr. H. DeVries, who did not acknowledge her with a greeting or show any concern.

The letter was a conditional expulsion, signed by the ministry. It was not possible for my mother in-law to physically meet the demands placed upon her by the ministry. Ironically, the GRC letter was dated a few days after my letter had been sent. Obviously, this GRC letter of conditional expulsion was carried by the Elder in previous weeks, awaiting her attendance. The impudence and uncaring demeanour of Mr. Hollins was affected painfully upon my wife’s mother. To this day she still has not recovered from this vindictive expulsion and is at a great loss to understand the shunning she receives from current GRC members.

This was the straw that broke the camel’s back. I decided it was time to do something about the cruel and callus spiritual abuse Mr. Hollins affects upon people. I not only knew for myself that the immoral and unjust ministry of Mr. Hollins was destroying people’s lives, but I perceived it was demonically inspired.

Up until this time since my expulsion, I was unaware that I had begun my journey, searching for ?the truth’. I knew first hand the injustice I had experienced in the GRC and rightfully assumed that many other people had experienced a similar cruel fate. I discovered many people were spiritually bruised and batted by Mr. Hollins, and their stories grieved me. For want of knowing the truth about why several people had been labelled ?backsliders’ by Mr. Hollins, I found that many of them had been traumatized no less than my self.

Suicide, extortion, damaged marriages, severed family ties, partiality, depression, lies and cover-ups were all there to be found as I dug beneath the surface to unearth what Mr. Hollins had buried throughout previous decades.

With consent from my mother in-law and my wife, I took the story to the press. This started the ball rolling. People called in to speak with the reporter who had written the article and inspired her to write more. Eventually four stories were written but only three made it to print. Mr. Hollins had used his law firm to threaten action against the press, but it didn’t matter. The desired affect had been achieved and Mr. Hollins realised I wasn’t going to go away quietly. He had managed to stifle many of the schisms he had confronted in the past, but this time the wounded were gaining strength and unity.

I was contacted by an ex-GRC member who informed me that an article appeared within a discussion forum on the internet. We didn’t have internet connection at home and so I requested a printed copy from my friend. After reading the article, I felt that the defamatory comments made against me should be brought to the attention of Mr. Hollins. I wrote him another letter requesting an apology from the author, who I believed was a current GRC member. After waiting patiently in vain to receive a response, I decided to use the forum too. Being consistent with his usual display of partiality, I believe this has proven to be an invaluable mistake on behalf of Mr. Hollins.

At the time when the newspaper articles were being published, my cousin and I met by chance in a supermarket shopping isle. We were both equally surprised to see each other but when I said ?hello’, she became infuriated. She started off by asking me, ?What do you think you’re doing’! I replied with words to the effect that I was still waiting for an opportunity for all of us to come together and discuss matters (as instructed in the Bible). That did it. She went completely off her tree. Shock seemed to have glued my boots to the vinyl flooring. She was so overcome with hysteria, she didn’t realise the growing number of onlookers watching in line at the cash registers.

At the end of her seemingly long, raging verbal fit, a violent threat was made against my life. Her unfortunate outburst caused me great concern for the safety of my wife and children. I knew deep down that she would not commit such an act herself, but what frightened me was knowing someone else might be capable. Having witnesses present to back my claims, I reported the matter to the authorities, just for the record. Admittedly, I contacted the TV media too, to do a story on the GRC in retaliation for my cousin’s violent verbal attack. Today/Tonight took on the story and wanted to visit Mr. Hollins at the GRC hall. Mr. Hollins was asked by the reporter to explain why I had been expelled. Mr. Hollins refused to answer. To this day he has never responded to any of my letters requesting the reason why I was expelled initially. I vowed to Mr. Hollins when the camera crew decided to leave; “I will never stop speaking the truth until the day I die. You can even arrange that to be sooner rather than later too, can’t you”?

The reason why I continue to stand up and speak out against Mr. Hollins and Mr. Addison is because they refuse to acknowledge and recant from their HERESY. It is their choice to preach what they choose, just as it is my choice to preach what I believe is right too.

My ongoing recovery from ’spiritual abuse’ has been achieved up to this point by discarding everything I’d been told by the GRC ministry. What I’ve been through was necessary for me to be delivered from Satan’s greatest lie. I do hope that by sharing my experiences, other people will detour early and avoid the pain and agony that I was made to suffer. I was deceived by the lies and believed the man who positioned himself before me was to be revered as though he was Jesus Christ.

The ?Frank DeBooy’ doctrine is also a lie from the pit of Hell. I lived in superstitious fear of this doctrine for fifteen years. It was taking me to Hell with it. The administration of condemnation is in direct conflict with Christ’s ministry of love, grace and compassion. Mr. Addison is a FALSE PROPHET.

The ‘Only True Church in the World’ doctrine (being the Geelong Revival Centre and associated churches) is also a lie from the pit of Hell. This doctrine was introduced by Mr. Hollins immediately after the 1972 split, to incarcerate and subjugate members under himself as the ‘chief corner stone’ designed for his own personal hierarchy with himself positioned at the top.

I once had a conversation with Mr. Hollins regarding the ‘Only True Church in the World’ doctrine. I said; “The Geelong Revival Centre is not the only true church in the world. It never was and it never will be. The Geelong Revival Centre is merely a vehicle that if the Lord sees fit, He will use it to bring souls to His True Church.” Mr Hollins privately conceded his doctrine did oppose the teachings of Christ. Mr. Hollins hardened his heart and continued to preach his doctrine that included me with the alleged ‘backsliders’.

Mr. Hollins is a FALSE PROPHET.

“ALL THESE ARE THE BEGINNING OF SORROWS: MANY FALSE PROPHETS SHALL RISE AND SHALL DECEIVE MANY”. (Matthew 24.)

My love for the truth is my strength. In search of truth I also discovered that the people, who I thought were my friends, were unveiled to be my enemies. People who I was told were my enemy have become true friends. This too was all sorted out once I became true to myself. I have only become an enemy of the GRC because I chose to search for the truth.

I know I am far from righteous in mind. My behaviour is not above reproach, and I do not deserve recognition for any seemingly good thing I have done. I have shared my testimony in hope that my experience may save someone from the pain and misery I encountered by placing my trust in the ministry of the Geelong Revival Centre.

Blessed is that man that maketh the LORD his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies. Psalm 40:4

Tony Addison Tuesday, Jan 15 2008 

Don’t think people don’t know what you have covered up Addison, you should have gone to the police, but you chose to cover things up and keep them secret.  All for the sake of appearances, it didnt matter that a life was destroyed in the process as long as you and that AALC still look good to the world. I would love to put the details of what happened and what you subsequently covered up on here.  But the person/s have moved on with their life, unlike you you slimy peice of crap. But i KNOW what you did and others know also.  But i guess you are beyond feeling shame for your actions. You are beneath comtempt, and i am sure if there is a God you will rot in hell for a long time for this and many other things you have done to people.  All for your good names sake which is corrupt and rotten to the core.  So how many have you got there these days Addison.  Not many i would guess and getter fewer by the day, but you wouldnt care, you have stolen all the assets, just like Hollins and put them into your name solely, so you have the filthy lucre JUDAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Mr Hollins Tuesday, Jan 15 2008 

DearMr. Hollins, I used to call you Pastor Hollins, but that was whenI believedyou were a man that I could trust and rely on, one that,I thought, cared for my soul. I thought your purpose was to teach God’s children of His glorious grace and mercy; to guide and direct; to restore and edify.

As I put my trust in the Lord, I essentially put my trust in you, Mr. Hollins. I was persuaded that this was the right thing to do. I was convinced that this was the only way to live my life in order to be blessed and I was terrified to do otherwise. Yet, when I became confused and concerned about certain situations and I needed your help and support, you refused to let me ask and insisted that there was nothing wrong. Your actions have clearly demonstrated to me that I cannot put my trust in you and you show very little consideration for my soul, not to mention the souls of my brothers and sisters. Instead of extending love and compassion for one of God’s children, that was obligated to trust and obey you, Mr. Hollins, you repudiated my questions, then, you proceeded to lie to the rest of the assembly and say thatIwas rebellious and a troublemaker.

Little did I realise that over time I was living my life to fulfill your rules, regulations, guidelines and instructions that were enforced upon some members of the assembly, but notall. Only my desire for truth and justice could reveal the depth of corruption that permeatesyourungodly place.

Well, Mr. Hollins, I would like to thank you for your cruelty, unkindness and lies, for they have caused me to call out to the Lord for myself and find once again His goodness and mercy.I would like tosharewith you a scripture that might be of some help to you:Mic 6:8He hath shewed thee, O man, what is good; and what doth the LORD require of thee, but to dojustly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God Even ‘unsaved’ man understandeth mercy.

One of your favorite authors, Shakespeare himself wrote about mercy…The quality of mercy is not strain’d, It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven Upon the place beneath: it is twice blest; It blesseth him that gives and him that takes:…It is an attribute to God himself; And earthly power doth then show likest God’s When mercy seasons justice……we do pray for mercy; And that same prayer doth teach us all to render The deeds of mercy… Portia to Shylock in Shakespeare’s ‘The Merchant of Venice’

Finally Mr. Hollins, I would like to ask a few questions that have never been answered satisfactorily.why - are new people told to listen with an ‘open heart’; then after ?conversion’, slowly and subtly that precious heart is forced to obey and comply with every rule, regulation and guideline (spoken and unspoken) removing the need to look to the Lord and the Word themselves for enlightenment?why - do you say that the Lord’s sheep do not attack the Pastor’s wife and family, and the Lord’s sheep do not do?those things’: If this were true, there would be no need for the shepherd.why - don’t you just say ? I don’t know’ rather than ?talk in riddles’ or lie when you don’t know…?

why - do you say ?I don’t know’ or ?I don’t recall’ when you do know…?why - do youdemandrespect from your brothers and sisters, yet fail to respect them?why - don’t you rule with the same force and cruelty towards the families of the ministry for things that ‘regular’ members have been excommunicated for?

why - is your church full of lies, deceit, hypocrisy and double standards?

Medication Tuesday, Jan 15 2008 

NHH was spotted entering a pharmacy  again a couple of weeks ago. Don’t think he was purchasing soap, nappies or condoms. He bans certain people in the assembly from taking medication yet it seems he can’t keep away from those chemists himself. NHH has always quoted the scripture abstain from all evil appearances, what is he doing then. Him and one of his other cronies forced a certain brother to sell his pharmacy because of the testimony sake. What a hypocrite is NHH, supporting another chemist. He would have to be purchasing medication that can only be bought in a pharmacy otherwise he would avoid going into such a store, just like he loathes video stores. He once saw myself and another person in the assembly walking out of a video store years ago and if looks could have killed, he then gave a talk that Sunday about people renting videos and how dangerous it is to our walk in the Lord and people that rent videos obviously have nothing better to do with their lives. Pleasure pleasure pleasure, heaven forbid we would enjoy our lives.

Noel’s warped view of healing and curses Tuesday, Jan 15 2008 

Once many years ago when i was in favour with Hollins,i would be asked to go to Dimboola with various people on a saturday to have fellowship?? (not sure on that one) One day driving back with Mark Reed he was telling me how Addison (and what an outstanding example he is) had told him that and i quote “Frank DeBooy is in a wheel chair because he came back from Newcastle without the approval of Hollins and that his being in a wheelchair is a direct result of that action and he went on to quote that scripture supposedly spoken by Jesus “No man having put is hand to the plough, and looking back is not fit for the kingdom of god” and that his condition now is because of that (no wonder he was never healed when he was wheeled out for pray on those many occasions)I am sure there are lots of people who could relate similar stories hence this new topic, feel free to add what you think is applicable to this topic.

Tony Addison is only interested in his betterment and the betterment of his family dynasty.  It is alledged that he sold all the vacant land around the hall in Adelaide, i bet that money never went to the work of the lord, more likely the work on his mansion, which i have seen with it’s impressive driveway (apparently there is a very interesting story in relation to how he got the money to do that little project about $10,000 if my sources are correct)  He is definately another that i hold in contempt as much as i hold Hollin’s in contempt, i hope he reads this as Addison you are nothing but a low life dog that will have his day (your wife still working to make ends meet these days Addison??) and maybe I will be right there (as i was at Ocean Grove when I, along with many others saw you savage David Erwin, your nephew) Nice one Uncle. 

Control Tuesday, Jan 15 2008 

I feel I need to warn people about the churches they attend.

For twenty-five years I attended what I thought was the family orientated Geelong Revival Centre in Thompsons Rd, Norlane, preaching the word of God, only to find out in the last twelve months that because I looked after my 18 months old grandson while my son was fighting for custody of his son.I am no longer welcome at the centre because I looked after my grandson during this turbulent time.I have been stood down from the church, made to feel bad and guilty, my grandson worth nothing and my family indoctrinated in to believing I am disobedient, using the words “we are in the world but not of this world” and “let the world take care of instead”.

In 1998 I was told “to get rid of him now” (my grandson) within six weeks and send him to welfare to be placed in foster-care as there were 10,000 like him according to the pastor (Noel Hollins).

Admittedly my son had made mistakes and was put out of the church but there was no reason to take it out on my grandson and me personally.If I wish to return to the church I must not see my grandson again and must apologise to pastor (Noel Hollins).

I will not apologise for looking after my grandson.I only want to warn other people to look very carefully at whatever church they attend as I have noticed things were happening over the past ten years but I could never put my finger on what was wrong.It has now struck me how indoctrinated we can be and how powerful ministers\priests\pastors are and how judgemental religion of any doctrine is. They use our inability read between the lines and people’s emotions and authority to control us, without us realising until it is sometimes too late..

INSTITUTIONALISED Tuesday, Jan 15 2008 

What does it mean to be institutionalised? To be institutionalised is to be incorperated into a well established organizationor grafted into a structure. After time it is impossible for some to adapt back to any normal way of life after being INSTITUTIONALISED.It appears to me this may be the case with-in the GRC.

I will just explain myself briefly I myself from the age of 20 started having problems with-in my own walk, relating to certain problems I was having with the ministry & GRC doctrines & what is being practiced here in the Sydney Assembly GTF.It wasn’t until November last year I made the decision to sever all ties to this hypocritical doctrine of Legalastic control over people.

In this time frame from last November ?04′ back dating until I was 20 years of age was a period of 7 years. It was in this period I found myself confused & some what disillusioned with myself fitting into society & living under condemnation, that, what if in the end result”I was wrong “(I knew I wasn’t wrong in the circumstances that I stood against & the hypocrisy I had seen) but felt I was wrong because I still wasn’t attending the body of Christ no longer.

So it was in this period I felt compelled to go back, thinking that some how things may have changed or maybe I would have changed & adapted to a different way of thinking.As it turned out things were worse upon my return, sin had increased with in the Gospel Truth Fellowship in Sydney & I was hearing other head turning & remarkable stories of things happening in other assemblies.

I had no other choice but to get out of this system of corruption that calls itself the ONE & ONLY TRUE BODY OF CHRIST.

But as I was saying I felt under condemnation for leaving & compelled to return thinking that it was I that had a problem & that I could not do with out this system GRC based doctrine with-in my life, thus making me feel INSTITUTIONALISED.Why did I leave?Because I saw things were not right, Now don’t get me wrong no one is perfect & we all have troubles in the flesh but we live by the grace of God.But when things considered & deemed not spiritual are carried out & tried to be kept a secret from the assembly & YOUR PASTOR IS LYING then you have no choice but to rack your brain & ask yourself WHAT IS GOING ON?

Then you pray about it & even try to confront your Pastor about it & you get told to either seek the Lord about it or get told no one else has a problem with it or a scripture is thrown back out you out of context to justify the circumstance the are breaking or at worst GET TOLD TO LEAVE & NOT RETURN.

Then you get people who say ?ok I agree with you that its not right’, BUT then they say, we just turn a blind eye to these things. So virtuallythey are openly admitting they are walking blind.

Then you get ones who help or get used to do little chores, hand out communion glasses, count the collections, get to sit out the front with the Pastor often, & even the Helps, who profess to be the Right hand men to their Pastors. Now not all these people are effected but some carry on & support their Pastor even though he is wrong in the event that some how they will earn extra Pastor points & accelerate them into greater prosperity or future promotions. Unfortunately they don’t understand that they segregate themselves apart from the body of Christ & form an alliance with there Pastor in a Us & them type of set up.So as it turns out there is no UNITY with-in the assembly the men in charge are un-approachable & cannot & will not be told of any errors that either themselves have committed or others who are on the protected species list.As it stands now with myself I have been told that I am not allowed to return because I have left twice!

But it was alright for my wife to commit adultery & still attend there today & start making preparations for herself to get married again.The Sydney Assembly has lost all CREDIBILITY to function properly with a Pastor who finds it ok toencourage his daughter into representive Golf at tournament level & compete for prize money & miss meetings in order to do this. A Pastor that allows people to continue in fellowship full knowing they have committed Adultery.

Now you got to ask yourself? Can I leave this place? I understand people that have followed 10 , 20 , 30 ,maybe 50 years may feel some what disappointed that after all this time the TRUTH has dwindled away with in this place they are attending now.

But it is not the end DON’T FEEL INSTITUTIONALISED Don’t tell your self WE KNOW ITS WRONG WHATS HAPPENING but feel you can not leave the current administration because its ALL you KNOW & its what your are used too.There is help!Stay in contact with your Brothers & Sisters who are are walking in the spirit.God will provide adequate ministry when the time is right!

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